What should i do????

Ok, I am religious, ( christian to be exact) and I'm not going to tell you religious stuff because you specifically told us not to. So, this is what I do. Even if it gets me in trouble. Speak your mind. It may get you in trouble, but it's what I do. My dad is an alcoholic too and I have to deal with it and I'm only 10. And, quit the engineering. If you don't want to do it, then don't do it. Be a musician. Do what YOU want to do!! Be your own person, not one that your parents want you to be!!!!!!