I need help my husband and I?

I need help Im a 21 year old women and im married me and husband moved to texas a year ago . Well that turned into a nightmare i found out my husband fractured my nine week old baby boys arm so severally he had to have surgical pins placed . That not the worst thing when we found out that my son had several more fractured in his body.My husband was arrested and seances two years in prison .My son was taken from me then by child protective services and i had to go through the motions like classes and several other things to get my child back I got my son back and what i need help is how im suppose to feel like i don't know what to do like i have no high school education and i feel like i deserve him i need advices